Radiation completed. How did I fare?

Having established a solid mind-body-soul mindset, along with Ayurvedic help, I was ready to commence my treatment.  Instead of taking anti-nausea medication, I planned to buffer my stomach with fruit. So I started by taking fresh pineapple about 30-40 mins prior to my radiation treatments and banana right afterwards.

This approach worked till round 8 of radiation, but round 9 and 10 were especially tough! Not only was I tired and had general malaise, my food pipe hurt when food or liquid went down especially at the hiatal valve/ stomach pit area,, my face swelled up and my body felt weak. Yogi Cameron suggested increasing the ‘Manjistha’ (blood and lymph cleanser) along with incorporating daily self oil-massages (Abhyanga) using ‘Bala’ or ‘Mahanarayan’ oils, to support the lymph system.

Verdict – Increasing Manjistha along with Abhyanga helped tremendously. I was also pleased that the body (although a little backed up) worked optimally!

Living Trust, Final Will & Advanced Directives…

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Being young, single, successful, immortal and invincible, I had plenty of time to get my financial house in order!  Perhaps a partner and children will come into my life and that’s when I will square my financial interests.  Didn’t realize that everyday I was taking a risk and playing ‘Russian Roulette’ with all my investments, retirement and saving accounts, property and assets, etc.  Never did I take the time to identify how I would like my desires and wishes to be carried out in case I got incapacitated from an accident, illness, disability or death.  I guess I must have felt that I was going to live forever!

Now I had the chance to make this right.  I researched the ubiquitous DIY online $49 deals, perused many DIY blogs and youtube videos.  Although many of these processes seemed simple and doable, I knew it was above my expertise, knowledge and experience! So I bit the bullet and I decided to go with a professionally trained flat rate lawyer well-versed in estate planning and probate law. Boy was I glad that I did.  Following is what I learnt-

  • It was more than a ‘Will”.  There were several ‘must have’ documents that needed to be completed, such as, revokable living trust, pour over will, durable power of attorney for assets, advance health care directive, etc.
  • Any property or asset not listed ‘living trust’ goes under the jurisdiction of the probate court!  During probate, it must be proven in court that the person’s Will is valid, their property is inventoried and appraised, taxes and debts must be paid (as well as the lawyers and court fees), and then the remaining property is distributed among the heirs and beneficiaries (a lengthy process). Plus, probate becomes a matter of public record at the time of the individual’s death.  Most if not all DIY will end up in the probate space.
  • Living trusts bypasses probate, since technically assets you put in a trust are owned by the trustee, not you, so upon death the trustee can transfer your property and assets directly to your beneficiaries.  Revokable because you can amend it as you go along or to cater for any life changes that occur.

In conclusion, I think if you want to do this correctly and save your loved ones the hassle, do choose a professionally trained attorney.  Not only is the process made seamless and straightforward, with long-term economic advantage, the guidance and advise was direct. For instance, I asked what if I were to buy additional property, how would that work?  She told me to buy it in the name of the trust as it automatically will  fall under my ‘revokable living trust’ with no need to make additional amendments! And I can always reach out to her for any questions I may have.  Monies well spent!

Ayurveda

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With the body weakening fast, radiation and chemo down the road, preparing the body by ensuring it was running & eliminating optimally, maintaining its vitality to endure long toxic assaults, etc., became momentous and center-stage in my life!  The mind-body-spirit connection had to be strengthened, well thought-out and executed.  This was make it or break it time!  The warrior princess was alive & kicking!

Already on prescription steroids and pain pills (Norco), with prescription for anti-nausea medications for radiation treatment due to effect my digestive/ gastrointestinal tract and secretory glands, and with chemo down the road… there were concerns galore!  How do I effectively manage all the side effects and toxins (constipation due to pain pills being primary concern), plus how to buffer the stomach, liver, pancreas, gallbladder, intestines, etc. from short and long term damage!

Needless to say, diet and nutrition moved center stage!  Food became sacred!  To achieve the right physical strength and calm mind (and to balance the flow of energy between the two), my relationship with food and lifestyle had to overhaul and be transformed!  Foods- type of foods, herbs, minerals, and supplements which would fortify the body, help build the body (bones in my case), kept it vibrant (while counteracting side effects my treatment and prescription medications), allowed for proper elimination and to bring it to a state of balance, before, after and beyond treatment, became a conscious intention.

Good thing! I had had a head start in my journey down Ayurveda way, although in infancy stage!  So didn’t need much convincing, however, the diagnosis did propelled it to center stage in my life fast!  I was seeking spiritual transformation as I knew my purpose of life was more than I was doing. I was more caught up in my ego, desires, wishes and materialistic pursuits, busy lifestyle, and resulting negative emotions and thought patterns.  I understood that there is more to life than that and I need to restore the delicate balance between the mind, body, and spirit by doing lifestyle modifications, incorporating meditation, mind-training by chanting, incorporating daily spiritual practices, reigniting my creativity, etc.

While doing online research on Ayurvedic medicine and lifestyle I repeatedly saw myself drawn to Yogi Cameron’s youtube videos.  His aura and energy was crystal-clear!  His advice sound and practical! His lifestyle was disciplined and ascetic!  He was the healer for me!  Once we were able to schedule a phone appointment, we discussed my diagnosis, treatment plans, need to build the bone tissue, my lifestyle, diet, spirituality and daily practices, etc. Following is the plan we came up for me during radiation, that will commence Feb 5th and last for 10 sessions.  I will give an update as to how it went for me.

Yogi Cameron’s Plan for Me

Morning Sadhana

  • 6-10 Asanas – to open the muscles and channels of the system.
  • Pranayama of Full breath and Alternate nostril breathing – each done for 5-7 minutes each.
  • Spiritual practice – to thank the divine and set intention for the day

Nutrition during Radiation-

  • Probiotics – double the dosage!
  • Drink Ghee in hot milk – helps transport ghee to deeper bone tissue.
  • Tip- Everyone should incorporate daily 3 tsp of ‘Desi Ghee’ daily, young or elders!
  • Vegetable soups/smoothies/juices(even when not hungry)– for nutrition
  • Fresh Tumeric and ginger root juice – bitter so mix it in a little water

Supplements

  • Shilajit – encourages healthy cellular function/ nourishes muscle tissue
  • Ashwagandha – encourages nerve, muscle function, adrenal glands
  • Shatavari – cools the body, nourishes tissue and immune system
  • Manjishta– cleanses blood and lymph
  • Bala Oil – (external use only) – massage oil for muscles and joints/heart

Bedtime

  • Triphala – one hour before bedtime on an empty stomach to help clean the colon (a must)

Yogiji Cameron you are such a blessing from the divine in my life.  Thank you!

So what does it mean to me?

My brain was on superdrive!  Was my demise imminent? How long did I have on this earth plane?  Was it going to quick/undignified? How do I break the news to my loved ones? What about my dogs?  What about estate, living will, advanced directives, funeral planning and related expenses?  What about work, paycheck and insurance? Questions galore!

Ironically, a strange tranquility descended upon me and my fears of dying just abated!  My only concern was for my parents regarding how would they handle their own child’s passing.  I knew I had to be strong for them!  But why was I so composed given that I had struggled with the dying and funeral process in the past? What changed?  Was I still stumped or did I finally accept the inevitable? All I can say is that for the first time in my life, I felt alive, A-Ok, content, free, liberated, peaceful and protected!  Whatever the outcome I knew I had the wisdom, teachings and strength of my Sikh faith, gurus and other eastern traditions, where we were taught that death is a natural part of living and a inevitable law of nature (where we all must return to our creator some day), however, the soul does not die but aspires to be released from the cycle of rebirth (which we Sikhs called ‘Mukti’, Hindus call ‘Moksha’, and Buddhists call ‘Nirvana’). Its based on the principle that human birth is the highest form of birth, and unlike animals, we humans know the difference between right and wrong, so we can improve upon our ‘Karmas’ and gain transcendence from death and rebirth cycle.

So, in knowing finality of life is really no new news – think how many beings will not wake up from sleep tomorrow? how about the flu deaths gripping the nation? or the Russian air crash that took place today?  Some had no chance to say goodbyes, put their lives in order or have a chance to live a more meaningful life! So getting this golden chance to overcome my pride/ego, desires, material pursuits, possessions, etc., and learning deeper love, compassion, contentment, and connections, and commitment to living a more vibrant, noble, thoughtful, richer and spiritual life is my plan to honor this blessing and protection by the Divine.